Bachelor VS Spinster

It is a sacrastic moment.

I never expect this to happen on me, unfortunatelty, it is something that I need to accept for a vague and masquaraded personality. Looking at the screen, I screamed for a while, inside my heart, from the bottom of my broken heart. I can’t stop it, but for the sensation meaning, I pet myself to you, I cut my hair for you, but never stay away from you.

Midnight now, I’m still sitting here with the sophisticated dress code, but your shadow is flashing in my mind, so much of the memories. Just a simple emotion, calm and steady, destroyed the dream with a mercyless yet warm speech. I get insomnia since you leave me alone.

Long long time ago, I’m hooked up with loneliness, sorrowness is my friend and happiness seems like trying to avoid me, but now, you with me, you holding my hand and trying to figure it out what to plan for the future.

Outside is raining heavily, it’s a damn cold, but I feel no distance between us, especially when I lying on your chest, because you complete me.

猖狂的内按法令！

Last night,I had a great time in Poopy.

Unfortunately, there was an incident happend in my life, the first time and I hope it will never happen again to me again.

Morning 0525, we set off from Dary’s house while on the way to LCCT to pick up Fang-Ren and her friend, May. Actually they can reach KL before 11pm, but the flight was delayed for 5 HOURS! So that when they reached LCCT was around 4 n the morning, once Dary’s received their call, we went to LCCT immediately after that heavy supper.

While we were starting the engine, there was a silver car came to us, 4 persons inside a car, one of them sound like local Malay and the others 3 looked like Indonesian. He asked:” Eh, macam mane pergi ke Taman Seri Setia?” We were puzzling. Since we have no idea at all and we were in the rush so Dary said:” Sorry I pun tak tau sorry yea~” Then, they left us behind.

0720, we reached Dary’s house and we were on the way walking to his house to take some rest. Suddenly the same Honda with silver colour and the same persons drove to us and blocked our way! They were in the quick, came down from the car and one of them, the driver used the sterling lock( It is large!) threathen me! I was so scared until I dropped all my valueable things on the floor! I don’t know what to do that time! I was blanked! Then I screamed to them: ” Please give me back my IC ,please!!!” I was begging to them, but they ignored me and grabbed all my stuffs(A wallet with RM 200++ cash ,the wallet was my Birthday gift from my sister, 2 handphone which were Nokia and Sony Ericsson 750i) , run away.

That was the unlucky one. The lucky one were they didnt hit me eventhough they were trying to use the most barbarian and violant way to rob my things, they didnt kidnap anyone of us( Although they were trying to do this, I guess) . Dary and Fang-Ren were fine, they were safe in the physical mean.

I’m not sure it is a lucky day or a black day to me. It’s too bad to redeem my Identity card ,driving licence and matriculation card. The cash is kinda huge amount to me, but it is not important in this case as we can get back the money in the future. The lucky things were I’m still neat and nice here expressing my feeling via blog, since most of the snatch theft were mercyless and I’m still safe here.

Be alert next time ! That is the thing I can advice you, don’t let the criminals to harm you in any meaning, your life is priceless, think about your beloved one, if this happen to you(touch wood~), safe yourself first .
Take care everyone.

5个月，终于结束了。

从开始的选拔，从辩手变成兼领队，再恢复为一个辩手，都是漫长的。很感谢这次的机会，更庆幸的是够成为你们（爱薇，正义，翠琪，赞贤，勇福）的一分子，因为这种机会不是每个人都能体会，能去谅解，更加要谢谢所有的师长们，他们的循循善诱，指导都是造就今天我的重要人物，谢谢你健强。以前对辩论的心态就是肆无忌惮，我爱讲什么就是什么。过后才发现，辩论是一个必须经过思绪的解放才能发挥的，更注重的是团体精神。我从一个政治百痴，到一个有点小知识的大学生，从不懂什么叫思考到了解什么是了解，什么叫不要囫囵吞枣，这些都是我这5个月的收成。

有得必有失。这5个月的收成时有代价的，我很少和他见面了，幸亏他能谅解。我甚少与我的知己出街，少了时间在课业上，精神上不断出现憔悴的脸色，更曾经因此而颓废，一塌糊涂。可是我了解付出与成果是成正比的，我坚信，我不放弃。

可是。。。

在公布成绩的那一刻，我紧握着爱薇的手，我一直默默的祈祷。最后的果不在我们这儿。我强忍内心的失望，我还要坚持下去。正义跑过来和我说：“不好意思”，我已经忍不住了，眼泪已经挤满我的眼眶，我哭了。进入检讨室里，检讨后，大家都互相安慰，互相勉励。赞贤跟我说：“对不起”，我又经不起那挫折，又哭了。已经很久没有将泪水挤出来了，可是就是那天，我哭了很多次，在车里，在房间里都哭得很自然，每每想起司仪公布成绩的那刻眼泪就禁不起风霜，流了。原来我是很小家气子的！太过执著于胜负，但是付出了那么久，那一个小小的回报就不能得到吗？

这一次是我们表现最好的一次，可是最好的下场确实如此，哈哈，好讽刺~而我自己或许与循中交锋的那次是表现相比起来较满意的一次，可是也是我在全辩结束的时候。

这一刻，我已渐渐的放下那包袱，可是我希望以后有机会弥补这次的遗憾。我依然深爱辩论。

有些时候，应该在适当的时候说些适当的话，不是为了某事而说，毕竟都已经是成年人了。

马来西亚大选的成绩已经是定局，代表了人民的心声，而反对党也得到执政的机会，那么这时候原本的反对党是否应改想一想如何为民服务，以实力来打动民心以避免成为另一个翻版国阵？

现实上，好像并非如此。

在霹雳州，要否决霹雳国阵的2/3，反对党就必须赢取59席中的至少20席。热烘烘的成绩揭晓后，行动党赢取了比回教党更多的州席，那么以以上的成绩是不是应该由行动党的人选来担任霹雳州务大臣？

可是往往天意弄人，有些事情是在预测之外的。在霹雳州，由于州宪法规定州务大臣必须由马来穆斯林出任，那么拥有最多州议席的行动党领袖能否出任大臣一职呢？

就在这个时候，国会在野党领袖、霹雳州怡保东区国会议员林吉祥在遴选着霹雳州务大臣时，却抛下震撼弹拒绝接受回教党州秘书莫哈末尼查（Mohamad Nizar Jamaluddin）出任州务大臣。

该怎么说呢，马来西亚是个多元化种族的国家，正在寻求进步的同时使需要各族同心协力一起打造这个和谐的社会。可是在今届的大选后，山河变色，人民是为了寻求一个更新的执政政府，因为信心，也是因为相信通过这次大选能够大力打破各族的隔膜，原因就是不理肤色，而能干的领袖才是人民的希望。

团结一致的民心正如一颗幼芽，需要用心灌溉。但是，自林吉祥说出这般话后，伤害的不但是人民的心灵，更是打击人民对于未来新政府的信心。或许在华报内姑且会收敛一点，可是别的语言报章尤其马来报却是大造文章，有心者还可能利用此话题来挑起种族分歧，唯恐天下大乱！

就在这番话说出口后的第二天，林吉祥却突然间对本身在拒绝接受回教党出任州务大臣人选做出道歉，并表示他无意冒犯霹雳州苏丹和摄政王。

峰回路转的一面，本人真的不知林先生到底在玩什么把戏，可是尽管如此，他说发表的言论已经令百姓原本以为自己投给反对党的一票可以为马来西亚带来新的改革的信心动摇，自以为投选了错的政府！

种族问题一直是我国进步的绊脚石，有时候，能够站起来维护自己族群的利益是难得的，可是不要忘记在顾及自己利益的时候，也要能及时顾及群体的利益，毕竟有些时候有难可以同当，又福却不能一起享啊！

最近觉得自己狂喝酸奶（yoghurt).每次逛街都会忍不住买来喝，尤其是那浓郁的香味，犹如刚踏进青春期的少女，分发出诱人的气味，令我爱不释手。当然有些人会觉得酸奶的样子很噩心，味道不如自己一般喝的饮料；但是也有些人觉得味道独特，其中是因为酸奶有种丰厚的奶味，令人抓狂！那，到底什么是yoghurt 呢？

酸奶其实是一种乳汁品，经过乳酸杆菌(Lactobacillus)发酵(生物体对于有机物的某种分解过程)而产生的。
自然酸奶内的钾（Potassium)，钙、B12和其他它包含的B维生素和蛋白质是提供健康所带来的好处。

酸奶的好处包括：

    *减少食道传染
       *改善免疫系统(对病症和传染的抵抗)
          *对癌症有更强大的抵抗
             *减少骨质疏松症(减弱骨头力量)的发生

附加利益包括

*减少阴道和膀胱传染。
*减少鹅口疮的症状再加以治疗
*改进钙在肠胃的吸收，因为酸奶的乳酸提供完善的吸收条件。
*不能宽容乳糖的人可以饮用酸奶,因为酸奶的酵素帮助减少肠胃内的乳糖水平-获取所有牛奶为主的产品所包含的好处(高于一切的钙)

当然现在社会越来越摩登，许多的乳酸菌饮品都是提供低脂肪的以迎合大众的口味，可是喝多了自然会至胖，但是以整体来说，乳酸菌饮品还是有利于我们身体的健康哦！！！

Haha~~!!

Well,wee~wang~wang, the feeling these days were just like a roller coaster,I’m still the same, not yet touched any books(My dear scolded me edi,~wuwu~T.T),then a load of dirty clothes not yet squeeze into washing machine to clean it, of course,happening things happen around,haha!!

As decided, goin’ to celebrate Zulu’s birthday on the night of 10th ,yea, early the morning get up to have lunch with my dear, den went to buy somethings for tonight,hehe, we want leng leng that day, of course, illegal parking(not illegal,just forgotten to pay the 50 cents and get "samanned" !!!Argh!Wad the F***!!!Nvm, it would never spoil my mood!!Hehe~ After few rounds in Metro, from Giant to Watson’s, guardian, I couldn’t find a sprayer that I was looking for, pity me, then kicked off to tesco, none.Disappointed. Alright, I need to choose again from the limited choices,wad to do,such a poor city~

Then, Ryan came,preparing everything, spraying, gelling, hair setting, tattoing …finally, we’re ready to ALOHA!!!!Well, cool hair with cool people,ngek ngek~~(It took a couple hours for us to settle up everything!!!)Then we set off to Aloha first(heard that boys need to exceed 21 yrs wo~)…So wad?We get into it finally, I strike some electric to the guard with my eye(that time was with contact lens de,hehe~),dont know why, just convincing and he let us go~hehe…Den? dance la! from the bottom we moved to top,kinda boring with oldies and those real show, after singing songs and wishes to the birthday girl,we get our Tequila,Gwen, such a brave girl  so high with that,I purposely order 1 …haha…Then regardless on top or bottom, we get bored, all non-stop techno songs ,disappointed…

So, we shake our body to Thai or Beach,saw lot of agua n prostitutes(may be la bcox like wear nothing~~),hot and sexy man!!!Alright , Beach is really a BITCH!!! I know I’m under age, so wad? Don’t u think u could use a softer or gentle way to talk with us just like the guard just now we met in Aloha? Bad services!Bad attitude! Bad notifications! Worst than any bitch or witches!!!!!F***!!Finally, we went to Ruums!!!

Crowded, sexier than Aloha,  hotter than  wad you’ve imagined !!! Everybody shows their hot bodies and how great they are in dancing!!Phew~wik!!! Now, Birthday girl performed her talent to the public, attracted the original sinners ,hehe~Well, we were not weak! Damn hot Gwen danced like Stefani, such a pure boy like Ryan finally show the power of a teenager!!Muackxx!! Love they all!!Of course, someone has been attracted by the public,how hot we were!!!

We enjoyed the whole day, sensed the musics, have fun with people!!

The next day,I onlined for the whole day(Never study also…My dear is gonna to kill me soon T.T) . Birthday girl and water sperm came to my house for mahjung, such a great day and pillow talk with them…

Then, today, gathering with Boon Hong, Yvonne, Rainbow n Rebecca, such a wonderful day for gathering, chat lot, sharing is blessing…haha…Then I went to Leisure mall met Edwin!!!( 很邪…lolzz),not only him la, James , Teh Oh, n Kai Cheong also…glad to meet them again!(The world is so small~~ngek ngek~)

Now?…I think I need to schedule my timetable liao, Ahrgh!!!
God please save me!!!

Alright, after few days of playing and "lepaking",I felt guilty, because til now, I stil have no idea when to start my assignments, don’t know when I will start my revision and my books are still inside my bag, never touch since last Statistics exam,  but this kind of guiltiness need to keep until Hari Raya,Why? Well, many places, gathering, parties, dating to go, after handling my dear, now my friends, birthday, and those back from North and south,is time for us to gather and chit chat.

Long time ago I didn’t sing K,felt weird when I sing again, but feel good after all but soar throat,then watched Resident Evil 3…Damn nice! and f***ing good !em…better than wad I’ve expected …

Then slept whole day,exhausted and energy-less.I think I need some motivation  to push me  to my study desk, otherwise I will like a zombie in the movie, creeping around and doing non-productive activities.As now, surfing net, chatting and checking mail, even my coursemate Jimmy also said good night to me before 130am;Gwen was just nudg-ing me in msn(I tot she was sleeping for tomorrow),Jane is watching drama gua…

Gwen said her observation is getting better than an eagle,need to tackle out now…Night everyone~

Yea,tale as old as time, but memories are as sweet as now!!!

Since the day I entered UKM, I almost lost my contact with all my sixth form  friends.CH is in Singapore now, ZJ,BH,HC now in UPM,Yvonne is doin pshyco,KY n Venus are perfectly well in IMU, XW n Edwin in USM ,only I see yy sometimes,perhaps being too busy these days, too kepo in all the activities, but just felt  like so sayang if I didnt get somethng from wad i’m odin now, yea I learned more in wad I’m having now, but I’ve learned more than which I have never expected, hard to be a leader since being a leader needs patience, responsibilities and able to make decision, but unfortunately, I found it only after the post is over, well, experience is important, this is wad I tried to convince myself…

Luckily, my dear is so supportive, give me encourages and advices, helped me lot in the pass few months, I love u!!!(I tell u more when I meet u again,hehe…!)

Again the life in uni is totally different from schools. I felt like I’m in a small society, which we need to master some basic communication skills, and some typical knowledge to survive in such condition. Learning is a process, applying is the result of wad we’ve learned, from people and history.UKM, so peaceful and war-less, even during the election , I didnt see any confrontation(perhaps are hidden case and I’m not sensitive with it) of conflicts between them,gratefully.

Well, my first sem in UKM almost goes to the end of the chapter, I appreciate that I have entered to an uni which suits me, and met a group of good friends here, which we can handle problems together and help each other…Haha…

I know the points are quite unorganized, but kinda fuzzy now, my biological clock is forcing me to get to the as early as i can, but i still need to rush for my C++ assignments, otherwise i will get C++ for my C++ like my lecture, Dr Leong mentioned long time ago…

Wish the day cheers u up!!

Alright,long time i didnt update my things and today is my time to say something…

I’m glad that I have been chosen to further my Degree in UKM because It is near to my house, even i can go back every weekend as i wish and need not to fight with ppl for bus tickets or squeeze inside the bus just to back home and sitting there for doing nothing!!!Then I like the library(Tun Sri Lanang), big enough and for me to take a short nap and the air-cond service is damn wonderful…Next time I will bring my pillow together …Then for those don’t have any laptop o desktop, u can online just opposite de library bcox only 1 ringgit per hour….u can do wadeva u wan….hehe…den got swimming pool to keep fit, keep your cardiovascular system in healthy stage and enhancing the diffusion of oxygen into your cells…..Of course right here, a lot of activities to join,you can choose wadever u want, and no discriminations like de other uni …hehe…

Alright come to something I’m really sick of it.First, the food.Yes i cant expect something very good from the uni but at least cook something that human can eat ok?Especially my hostel de cafe…I will vomit If I mention again.At the same time, the food is expensive, i can tell u I can cook better than the chief and sell to u all in a cheaper price.

Then the bus service,please be logic ok, a bus can only occupy 60 persons and how could u expect 100 students to squeeze inside de same bus?Ask ur mama to teach u basic calculation!! Some bus drivers are really bad in manners n attitude,they never consider the safety of the students and just leave the bus without students’ acknowledgments.Come back to the students.So called mentally stable undergraduates, but never line up when the bus arrive, all fighting for the seating place.If u r really that passionate in fighting, please fight for first class in term of academic and ur first class mental ,it sucks man!!!

Back to the bus service, I can tell u they will never be punctual in term of managing time.Sometimes even within an hour there r no bus service at all but only RAPID KL(They will send me back to kajang, not within UKM area…).Alright, my precious,hot and sexy youth period is extremely ruined by this kind of thing.If u wan to produce high quality and productive students, please save their time,we’re not goyang kaki type ok?

The lectures here…==’..ok la.My programming teacher is quite good de.My EST teacher also la, at least more to practical rather than only theory…

Night lu,wanna oi oi liao~~